Yesterday, I called my mum and told her about my 'body issues'. I told her that I hate my own body, that I can't stop obsessing over the way I look. So now she knows, and she has now told my dad, so now he knows too, at least a bit. I was supposed to go to the psychologist last Monday, But she was sick, so now I'm going to go on Wednesday instead. I got really disappointed when dad told me that my psychologist was sick, because I really, REALLY want to stop feeling like this. In a way, it's been getting better since the holiday's started, because now I don't have to worry about what my classmates think of me, But I'm also worse, since I now have nothing to do and that is causing me to overthink and feel worse.
Mum said that the reason to why I hate my own body is maybe because in my other class, they froze me out, so then I thought I was the problem, causing me to see faults in myself. Because then I could understand why they didn't like me.
Oh well, lets see what happens later on, I'm just too tired to think and my head hurts. probably because I haven't been outside today :P
I'll see you around then
xx Nicole
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